Welcome to my world!

Posted: June 14, 2008 in General Discussion
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Hello everyone,

I’m stealing this idea of starting a blog from a friend of mine (The Historic Protestant). It’s pretty much anything goes here. Theology, sports, family, music etc……. You bring it, we’ll discuss it! Check out my links too.(more to come…)

Sola Deo Gloria!,

                   Cypha

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Comments
  1. Angel says:

    This is pretty neat. let me know if this post

  2. Cooke says:

    Yo what up! Pretty cool blog! Shane’s is better tho!LOL! Naw just messing. I’ll definitely favorite it and keep in touch. Gotta go. With love in Christ!

  3. bones says:

    just wanted to let ya know i’ve been here. i’ve read all posts and responses. pretty cool!
    love ya brother

  4. Marsha says:

    Ok…so I am posting the following to see if anyone has any thoughts. I feel so ashamed right now. God in His Sovereign mercy has revealed such truths as we have discussed to me. However, I feel so unworthy. We were studying Romans 1:16-17 tonight at church, and I couldn’t help but think that maybe subconciously I am ashamed of the gospel. I don’t think I am, but then I look at my life. I know these precious truths of God’s grace and glory yet I do not venture to bring my stances on these issues up to people who might disagree in discussion. I am the worst of all…I sit back and don’t say a whole lot. Here, it is simple; I feel like I am surrounded by people who will not tell me I am stupid or who would challenge me. I feel like if in conversation with those who might not share the same beliefs I would totally fail God because I do not know all there is to know about His truths. To be honest, I sometimes confuse myself. I think on things so much that I tend to overthink things. And so what…what if I do get ridiculed or laughed at or even challenged…how dare me feel like I am any different than the prophets and saints of old who were challenged even jailed or murdered for doctrinal beliefs that they held and stood up for. So here I am, I do what I do to get by…to go unnoticed or undetected in the world so that I can say the generic church stuff and do just that. I am so afraid of confrontation that I am the worst of all. I am not a non-Christian arguing with Christians (at least they are engaging in the discussions)….I am simply silent. I am so ashamed of myself. It is so hard for me to bring this stuff up because to be honest…for me God’s completely Sovereign grace was a hard pill for me to swallow just two short years ago…so I know that the conversations that would arise would not be short or even just one time conversations….I don’t think I can do it. I mean I want to be able to but I don’t believe I could at the moment. I feel so unworthy….I mean God saved me and I do nothing…I see so many passionate outspoken people who are non-Christians…I have to ask myself…If they were saved, would they not do a million times more to bring God glory than I have thusfar? Then I come to the question…why me? Why would God save someone like me who is so riddled with fear that I am not a very good voice to spread the glory of God through the truths of His grace…and then I get the questions well…I don’t remember a specific day and time that God saved me but just a series of encounters with Him that have led me to who I am today…a child of God desiring to glorify Him but always falling short. When I say that, there are millions that say I might not truly be saved because I do not have a specific date and time reference. Ok…so thats where I am at…Now that I have regurgitated a whole lot of pent up worries and feelings…does anyone have any comments or ideas or advice?

  5. lifecypha says:

    “I mean God saved me “————That’s it. You know this, you rest in this and everything else is gravy. I think Josh is doing a good job in driving home the Gospel. Really that’s all we need to know. I love theological disussions, but that’s what they are discussions (that sometimes turn into debate.lol). The gospel is the same no matter what side of the fence you stand on theologically. I wouldn’t beat myself up if I were you about the lack of desire to engage in these discussion right now, because I know the more you learn and grow and see these said truths being displayed in scripture, eventually you’ll initiate these discussions. I believe that you are one of the most dedicated Christians that I know, and I believe Mystie would back me up on that. I also think that if you feel that you’re doing enough or that your efforts are insuffecient that’s a good thing. We should never become satisfied or complacent in our walk with God. If your post would’ve been full of “I know it all, or I’m the best Christain in the world,” type of stuff then I’d be worried. But the feelings you talk about are the same ones I deal with as do my brothers in Christ. That’s what keeps us going. My advice would be continue to grow, continue to study, continue to pray and continue to serve, and to rest in the Lord.
    “I mean God saved me”

    p.s. visit some of the sites I have linked on this page. They have helped me tremendously(sp)!!

  6. Marsha says:

    Thank you. I appreciate all that you said. I think I just had to get all that off of my chest. Thanks for listening(reading). 🙂 I agree that God is really using him (Josh) to drive home the gospel. I really feel like he speaks not his own words but what God has to say through him. I just also know that it made me appreciate grace so much more when I understood God’s Soveriegnty. I mean…it is so amazing to me that God would save us from Hell when we don’t derserve it. I think sometimes the world feels like God owes them and He doesn’t. We owe our lives to Him, and that’s it. He did not have to save me, but He did…He does not have to save anyone…we all deserve His wrath, but it is so beautiful to know that despite all of that…He still saves so that we can see His glory and so that our lives can be an outward expression to others of that glory! Knowing the truth of God’s grace helped me to realize just how amazing God truly is. I think we take Him for granted. We limit Him so much; yet, He is so much greater than we could ever imagine. I just feel like people should know how beautiful God is..in saying that though…I know I will never truly know all of His beauty until we meet Him in Heaven, but I feel like He shows me a little more each day. Its also about sharing the gospel. Josh asked when the last time that we shared the gospel was and to be honest…I don’t even know. How sad is that? I am so worthless. I desire nothing less than to stand up and speak His grace through the gospel, but I just fear confrontation so greatly! Dunno…I hope I didn’t stress anyone, but it is nice to be able to get everything out there sometimes…otherwise its too much to keep inside.

  7. Marsha says:

    To add this…I do love how Josh stresses God’s sovereignty in his messages. All of this has to do with my feelings of how inadequate I am being for God…not anyone else. Just wanted to make sure that was clarified. I feel blessed to be where I am at my church and I know God has placed me there for a reason…I just wish I could be more useful for His glory than I am being.

  8. historicprotestant says:

    Marsha,

    I sense a spirit of humility in you.

    SANCTIFICA’TION, n. [See Sanctify.]

    1. The act of making holy. In an evangelical sense, the act of God’s grace by which the affections of men are purified or alienated from sin and the world, and exalted to a supreme love to God.

    God hath from the beginning chosen you to salvation, through sanctification of the Spirit and belief of the truth. 2 Th 2. 1 Pet

    Just as Bill has said, “We should never become satisfied”. The unworthiness feeling that you have is literally a “badge of honor” to be worn with humility. I think Paul Washer glorifies God in his testimony because of his great humility, and his sense of unworthiness. These traits will also resonate with you as the Holy Spirit continues to sanctify you throughout your life. My prayers are with you.

    To God be the glory

  9. Marsha says:

    Bill,
    Thank you for posting that link to Paul Washer’s testimony. Wow. What other motivation do we need?

  10. bones says:

    marsha

    you are not alone. i HATE confrontation also and i don’t get into “discussions” for fear that i will not do a good enough job presenting my opinion. i am not the smartest guy in the world, so i doubt myself all the time. i know what i believe, but i don’t feel i do enough to express it. and why not!!? how can i sit idly by and keep my mouth shut when i know i need to speak up? i ALSO(it’s weird you brought this up!), just this past week, doubted whether or not i was saved because i don’t have the date or specific time it happened. i have a changed outlook on the sin in my life, but i don’t know(like alot of people) that i was saved “on this day” or “when i was 12”. i think i know when i was saved, but i have done some terrible things since then, so was i really saved? how could i do these things after knowing the sacrifice Jesus made for me on the cross? and the biggest question of all, why would He hang there for me knowing i would do these things?

    LOVE!! (John 3:16)

    He loves us, that’s why! He looked down and saw us sitting by keeping our mouths shut while He was hanging there and did it anyway! He knew the people we would be the whole time and died for us anyway! we can take comfort in knowing He knew how we would be and what we would or wouldn’t do, and shed that blood for us anyway.

    stay strong! maybe He doesn’t want you in these “discussions”. maybe your gifts are better used elsewhere. just pray that He will use you

  11. bones says:

    well, i’m not sure if i said exactly what i was thinking. it’s hard for me to put my thoughts into words, but i do wanna say this. if God reveals something to us, whether it be about our salvation or a truth about the gospel, we should never doubt it. we should not let the devil rob us of a blessing givin to us by the One who loved us enough to drink that cup of God’s wrath for us.

  12. Marsha says:

    It is nice to know that I am not the only one with these thoughts/fears/concerns. I too have a different outlook on my sin, but I have also done so so many terrible things since as well. I am beginning to see that He may not want me in these “discussions” just yet. I tend to neglect the idea that God designed me…who I am to the very core…I am sure He has reasons for making me who I am. So for now…I will do as He is leading me to do not anyone else but me. I find though that sometimes it is easy to see amazing saints of God and what they do for His glory and to feel like I am supposed to be like them, but I am not…I am called to be like Christ and to follow the will of God as He reveals His will to me for His glory through my life.

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